Today. Its been six months since my encounter with failure. A grand failure. Life wakening. The worst till date. Every one has a different way of dealing with it. Me too. And here i am sharing my post failure experiences. July 8 was it when i realized it. I couldn't get into a college normally like other students. the day when everyone else seemed to be knowing my truth. Family friends foes every damn person had now known i had taken a "drop". Facing reasons and excuses, the people whom I partially blame for my downfall almost hollowed my aspiration to become a successful designer. My parents couldn't handle it for the moment but as we say 'life has to move on" we too did. yes. it was a pay back time for me my parents and every person associated to me and my failure. i started working on it once again or rather for the first and last time now. every night before sleep was a realization check. i know crying would have done no good but least it could do is let your emotions out. i started isolating myself from the world. no reasons to give. just to face them again to hide my truth and i somehow did it. i still thank god for giving me such good friends. coming back to experiences, my mother. the only woman who still has all the truth suppresed within herself . my dad. still investing money in me. all this keeps pushing me from within. a pay back time. get out. do something. but neither time stops nor does it pass according to ones wish. even after being a failure i get all the facilities respect love but not because i deserve it just for the sake of it. today i feel ready to take the exams and pass this hurdle only if i could run ahead of time. Just sharing a gist of it. just one question to the viewers there: Does this happen once in everyone's life time?
